something unsettling.
theres still that odd feeling in my heart. i get it whenever i look at you. is it a good feeling? i don’t think so. it isn’t your fault though. its mine. there is something i can sense in my mind that does not sit right. its what makes me not believe what you tell me. its what makes me keep my guard up. its what makes me keep my heart at bay. it makes me keep my heart protected. i haven’t been allowing myself to feel that sensation of butterflies in the stomach. even though i badly want to feel it. i just cant. i dont know why. ive blocked myself off from feeling any kind of emotion. if i dont feel emotion, i cant get hurt. but unfortunately, nor can i feel love or happiness. ive spent years building this wall around my heart to prevent anyone from damaging it. its taken me a long time but now ive built it so high that i cant even get out…. ive been trying to get over the wall but that unsettling feeling has been tying my down. and i really do want to get out. because once im out i can finally feel something again.
so please. do this for me. or at least help me.
can you break down my walls??
